Perhaps I should be following G’s lead and listening to the Paul McKenna CD, as I felt really tired yesterday. Perhaps it was just because it was a Monday, but in part I think it may have been that I seem to be worried about various things at the moment. Nothing big, not even anything important or imminent, just small and insignificant things that really aren’t worth worrying about. If you were to see me you wouldn’t think I was any different to normal, but somewhere below the surface things are whirring away.
I think it’s a family trait and, unconnected to my current frame of mind, my sister commented says that she sometimes worries about things and that she thinks she got that from dad. I just wonder how much you can do to unlearn certain types of behaviour. I do believe that people have the ability to change, but I’m not sure if that means that you learn to cope or you actually deal with the underlying issue. Perhaps it depends on what it is.
I think part of the problem is that I have let my world get smaller and smaller over the last few months. The less you have going on in your life, the more the things that you do have going on become the focus of your life. So I need to get some more interests and do things that are more outward looking. I have a few things in mind and am also trying to arrange to meet up with a couple of friends, but regardless I need to change my perspective a bit. As somebody wise once said “who of you can add an hour to his life by worrying about tomorrow”.
Or perhaps I just need to get more sleep.
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